The Journal of Cory Kershaw

5:47am: A) I'm hated
B) I'm loved
C) I'm all of the above

3:31pm: "What Was Actually on the Menu?

What foods topped the table at the first harvest feast? Historians aren't completely certain about the full bounty, but it's safe to say the pilgrims weren't gobbling up pumpkin pie or playing with their mashed potatoes. Following is a list of the foods that were available to the colonists at the time of the 1621 feast. However, the only two items that historians know for sure were on the menu are venison and wild fowl, which are mentioned in primary sources. The most detailed description of the "First Thanksgiving" comes from Edward Winslow from A Journal of the Pilgrims at Plymouth, in 1621:

"Our harvest being gotten in, our governor sent four men on fowling, that so we might after a special manner rejoice together after we had gathered the fruit of our labors. They four in one day killed as much fowl as, with a little help beside, served the company almost a week. At which time, among other recreations, we exercised our arms, many of the Indians coming amongst us, and among the rest their greatest king Massasoit, with some ninety men, whom for three days we entertained and feasted, and they went out and killed five deer, which they brought to the plantation and bestowed upon our governor, and upon the captain, and others. And although it be not always so plentiful as it was at this time with us, yet by the goodness of God, we are so far from want that we often wish you partakers of our plenty.""

Turkey day usually means one or two more relatives in the house, shrimp, cream cheese, cocktail sauce & crackers on at least three tables & the counter in the kitchen, football, me avoiding tabletop games, my aunt taking fifteen smoke breaks & making weird noises.

We actually have the same Turkey dinner about eight times a year maybe more, we invite the same relatives, maybe one or two less side dishes, no sparkling cider & no pumpkin pie but essentially the same. This is a good thing I get to see close family semi regularly I just think it's funny that Thanksgiving seems like it should be a bigger deal.

4:37am: Only have to work three days this week, Friday will be slow.
So instead of video games it seems I can find just about anything to distract myself. I'll have to say movies, books etc doesn't seem like as big of a waste of time but it is I suppose. I need to find something better to fulfill my time.

4:29am: Today I had trouble reading a clock less than 5 feet away from me. I was also brought out of being tired by a text friend a friend. Thanks for contacting me & catching up but I do wish it had been at a different time of day. I will regret responding in the morning. I think I'm going to print up a list of quirks, problems & positives about me. Highlight the ones I want to talk about so that I know what I really want to focus on changing & keeping.

I don't think I would fight cancer. Just saying.

2:29am: Always rethinking.

9:50pm: Which came first? The add or the product?

5:00pm: I think I'm not going to shave from the first of October to the end of January every year I can get away with it.

7:33pm:

12:32am: it was a good day, thank you day

2:10am: If a Ƶombie outbreak happened I would rejoice, life would have meaning & I wouldn't have to worry about the mundane. Darwin would rule supreme in a work where a mistake could mean your life. I think I would thrive in survival mode. I might die but I would die in battle. The idea deeply pleases me even considering the loss of loved ones. If this makes me a bad person so be it but I do deeply wish for the Ƶombie Apocalypse it's something I have thought about to a great extent back up plan upon back up plan, I am not prepared but I know what actions I would take. I'm a crazy son of a bitch but I think that might work in my favor.

Work has been good, I love my new work schedule. Three days off is awesome. Only working four days the week is half over before I even realize it & I get a lot more done in ten hour shifts.

I am loving life right now, & my plans for the future are something to truly be excited about.

If I fail in my plans I can at least said I tried. I will never wonder what if.

2:38am: http://www.playalterego.com/alterego

4:11pm: We all seek understanding of ourselves & others & we all lie to ourselves & others. What we seek often seems unattainable & what we have often seems unacceptable.

My observations mean nothing without careful thought, planning, motivation & action.

I worry that the more I accept myself the more insane I become.

I think to be truly happy with myself & how I live my life will take drastic measures & a great loss of what I think is important to me today.

6:03pm: Happy All Hallow's Eve!



PS. It's Saturday night/All Hallow's Eve, I just got paid, & I don't have to be anywhere until Noon Wednesday...

5:46pm: I now work Wednesday-Saturday 10:30 am to 8:30pm.
November starts my medical coverage, I'll be starting the old medication shortly after. I hope it still works like it did.

I enjoy the rain a lot, it makes jogging so much easier.

4:43am: via the berry

8:14am:

2:49am: http://www.visit-x.net/rammstein/ this is not safe for work, dicks, vagoos, tits, thanks Ramnstein!

12:56am: via the berry
http://shutupwomangetonmyhorse.com/

7:51pm: November 28th?

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/group.php?gid=152289779503&ref=mf

8:05pm: Over 50 people interested in capture the flag, I am pretty stoked. I will be happy if even half of that number can show up for a game.

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=152289779503&ref=mf

8:10am: Today
I went for an hour long walk
I ate a good breakfast
I'm going to drop my classes in a little bit
I'm then going to fill out the paper work for my health insurance
I'm going to start working full time again
I'm going to start giving my momz my whole pay check so she can help me save up
I'll be able to ask her to grab groceries & other stuff without feeling bad either
My weekly goals are pretty simple
Get at least 8 hours of sleep.
Prefer 9pm to 5am but flexible
Mon, Wed, Fri go for an hour walk in the morning
Tue, Thur, Sat Shave
Sunday do Laundry
Once a month get a hair cut.

I just bought some ASICS GEL-DS Trainer 14s the 15s are coming out Nov 5th but I didn't want to wait. Walking in work boots sucks ass.

I guess I just need to work out some shit before I sit down & do what I want to.

3:34am: ( fuck )

10:28pm: New icon is new.

10:23pm: Robots vs Zombies
http://www.facebook.com/posted.php?id=1030875410&share_id=156289525841&fragment=share_footer156289525841&comments#/group.php?gid=152289779503&ref=nf

Ultimate Capture the Flag in Bremerton.

6:43pm: Anyone Down for Capture the Flag?